into the wild [recession]

only my life could be this ironic...to be laid off on april fools day.

it wasn't a complete shock. for months now, there had been a noticeable lack of projects coming through the door. it wasn't until recently, however, a feeling was floating around the office that change was going to happen soon.

last wednesday, april 1st, i was called into the conference room, to meet with my boss. he informed me that the firm was going to be cut in half. for various reasons, i ended up being on the layoff side of the half.

(i'll be honest, for a split second i thought this was just one epic april fools joke, but knew that it was true.)

the next few hours were spent cleaning up my desk, and collecting any work that might aid in the pursuit of a new job. to be honest, in this economic climate, i'm scared about finding another job. talking with my friends in the architectural community, i'm well aware the situation is bad everywhere. i have no idea what the future holds...

...and maybe it's that, the fact that i don't know what the future holds, that in a weird way intrigues me. for every part of me that's scared, there's a part of me that's excited, excited for the possibilities! i have no idea where i could be in 3 months. it might be because i'm in the middle of reading "on the road" but i have a sort of kerouac-ying feeling about the whole thing. the kind of feeling of not knowing where you many end up or who you might meet next. i could end up on a beach in hawaii, or in the corner room of my parents basement......preferably hawaii, but who knows. all i do know is in this life, there are people who have experienced far worse, and have survived. i have nothing to be worried about.

this is just one more lesson/class/test in the intern[life]

i just hope i pass!